GSR. How to get the inner strength for living
🔹 January 2018. For the last year and a half, I only want to fall asleep and not wake up anymore. But the daily routine is awaiting me, but I feel so depressed to do anything. Cooking, taking the child to school - all with the last bit of strength.
At times, I blaze with anger. Then the guilt eats away at me for my outburst of rage, inability, weakness.
Communication with my husband consists of reproaching and blaming - it's easier not to communicate. I'm scared for my children and it cloudes my consciousness - bad things will certainly happen to them.
Weak and helpless, I depend on other people. I need support from them like air. I dream of living someone else's "better" life and bury mine. I envy others and gnaw at myself.
🔹February 2018. Through my dulled consciousness, I try to read reviews about GSR. There are glimpses in my existence. The limit of my dreams is easy and quick to change the psychological state and then all life.
I took my first step with a GSR specialist in April of the same year.
🔹May 2020. My independent session. For the first time in my life in half an hour (!) I got rid of the mental anguish that tormented me all day.
I can live! I can be free from all meaningless emotional stress. I can be adequate, stable and take responsibility.
And I keep calm.
🔹Today. I increasingly respect my husband's feedback. He's really sensible person. I appreciate my husband as a father of my children and a person who sets course of our family life. It's important for me to invest in and strengthen our relationship.
I am a mother for 11 years, but I have recently found out how to keep my children happy without barriers. It's magical to love my energetic, smart boys.
I'm feeling peppy all day and don't want to sleep even at night. I have a lot of ideas I want to realize!
Less and less things can hurt me. I have no envy. There are many examples to inspire and admire me. I don't compare my life with someone else's. It's just different.
Kirchgezner Asel, 33 years old, content manager and GSR specialist.
I have been practicing GSR for 1.5 years.